4+1 little Liam

As usual with each pregnancy, I finally eek out a belly picture at the beginning of the end...meaning, I finally rounded the bend in to the third trimester, and have officially declared it acceptable to countdown in weeks now instead of months!!! I now declare that I have 9 weeks left (that's based on the hopes that he'll come a healthy 3 weeks early like Owen!) If I say I have 12 weeks (which would fall on my due date) that could be counted as 3 months and THAT my friends sounds completely and utterly unacceptable! 

 I haven't chronicled this pregnancy as well as I did the other two so for my record keeping here's a short rundown...

Top 5 things that I've hated this pregnancy:

1: Feeling overly tired and depressed for an extended period of time, causing serious grouchiness, lazy mothering and an overwhelming sense of gloom and darkness

2: Not feeling like I wanted to be pregnant or wanted another baby anytime soon (can we say HUGE guilt and depression for the last 6 months)

3: Eh....intense and painful issues from previous birthing damage, and other issues stemming from last years gall bladder surgery, and old back injuries

4: Thinking I was going to have a girl for 5 months, only to find out that we're having a Liam instead of an Emersyn (which was my girl name)

5: Feeling hormonally out of control, a complete mean mom, and horrible nasty wife...what a horrible feeling to literally be able to feel something "off" in your body and mind that you can't control, but can only dim with supplements and medication

Top 5 things that I've loved this pregnancy:

1: To this day I have yet to throw up!!! Not even from having the flu (knock on wood) with Carter I had the stomach flu and pneumonia just before I had her...with Owen I had the stomach flu and then bronchitis right be fore I had him...So I'm feeling quite fortunate that neither myself....OR my children OR my husband have had any sicknesses during this years nasty cold and flu season!!!

2: Having fun conversations with Carter about baby Liam growing in my tummy, hearing her tales of growing a puppy in her tummy,  and debating over names with her for her new brother....watching Owen go from testosterone angry little man to a sweet puddle of smiles when he sees a tiny little baby!

3: Although I feel as huge as I look, I still feel absolutely beautiful, in thanks especially to John, who's eyes can never tell a lie, and when he embraces me, rubs my belly and tells me I'm beautiful and sexy to him, there's undeniable truth sparkling in those eyes!

4: Finally at 29 weeks feeling a complete and utterly sugary sweet oozing of excitement and joy over adding another little one to our family (wowza, those hormones are SCARY the first 2 trimesters)

5: Feeling little Liam wiggle and squirm, knowing that as the days tick by, he's active safe and sound, CAN NOT wait to see his sweet face, and nuzzle his peachy little cheeks with my nose!!! We've had too many friends and family experience tragedy and loss during pregnancy for me not to feel on edge, therefore I feel EXTREMELY blessed, and quite frankly LUCKY that things have always gone relatively smoothly and well.

Love my babies...sassy pants, angry man child tantrums and all, life wouldn't be as sweet if they weren't here and mine!

We're sure getting excited for little Liam Craig Hansen to arrive, thankfully the naming process has gotten easier with each baby...we joke that Owen Luke was named after the Wilson brother's, Owen and Luke, because we love their movies so much...so of course it was fitting that we settle on Liam Craig, because John thinks Liam Neeson is a stud, and I think Daniel Craig (Bond) is a SUPER stud!!! Actually we chose the name before we thought of the connections, same as with Owen but we get a chuckle out of it...doesn't every kid go through a "Why did you name me ________" phase? I liked the name Walker for a boy, but John couldn't stomach answering that question with "Because we're suckers for Chuck Norris jokes, and thought we should name you after his most famous character...Walker Texas Ranger" Hahaha! I still love the name Walker though...I think I picked up that one from a western romance novel :)

I love to watch my children interact (when they're not fighting!) and watch them grow together as siblings, it brings back many memories, and much joy from my own childhood. When I was pregnant with Owen I couldn't fathom how I could love another child as much as I did Carter....now I think how empty life would be without that extra love and joy he's brought into our family (along with much frustration and exhaustion!) and I know it will only increase and be more glorious and grand with Liam!!!